Never satisfied

S: “A person who is full refuses honey, but even bitter food tastes sweet to the hungry.” Proverbs 27:7 NLT

“As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person. Just as Death and Destruction are never satisfied, so human desire is never satisfied.” Proverbs 27:19-20 NLT

“People who conceal their sins will not prosper, but if they confess and turn from them, they will receive mercy. Blessed are those who fear to do wrong, but the stubborn are headed for serious trouble.”

Proverbs 28:13-14 NLT

O: I can't live in my anointing by not living a healthy life. It is okay to refuse what may seem to be honey when I'm full. It's not okay to continue eating bitter food when I'm hungry. I have to draw the line somewhere. My health depends on me. My heart is a reflection of me. If an X-ray were to be taken there would be layers of thick fat around it. My heart can't flow and fully function as it is suppose to because  it's weighed down by the fat. Growing up I was always angry. I would destroy others property and be very destructive in my words. Yet I was never satisfied. Likewise, I can continue to destroy my body and eat destructively but what food is trying to replace will never be satisfied.

A: I have let others be aware of my sin of unhealthy eating and I will prosper! To confess is the first step, to turn away from unhealthy eating will cause me to receive mercy! My fear shouldn't be the emotion I'm trying to hide but fear in doing wrong will lead to my blessing. It's time to walk into my blessing. No more stubbornness with weight loss, no more trouble with kissing weight.

P: Abba, you are my hope, my living hope. Your name is great and worthy to be praised. As I take my place in the kingship may my body reflect what you are doing to my inner man. As I resolve issues, let my pounds dissolve. God I desire to be the true me in every meaning of the word. Show me your grace. Show me your way. May I increase in favor beyond these 52 days. I need professional help. I don't have money to do so. May I get a trainer who will pour time into me in becoming the true me. I long to live off your bread alone. No longer thirsting for the delicacies if this world. God I know I've come to you before about this issue. I want it to be the last time. I know you hear me and will answer me for I know my weight is not in accordance to your will. Deliver me from myself. I want to be an emotionally healthy eater. In Jesus name, amen.