Be diligent.

Yesterday as I flirted with the idea of falling into a depression I stopped myself to ask why. My therapist is praying a great prayer over me yet my mind is going in different directions. Why didn't I speak up on the call? Why do I feel like I can't hear God's voice? I take a deep breath and loud and clear I hear God say my voice is drowned out by all the others you've allowed to hear and accept. Get back to hearing my voice over all the others. Get back to my word.

I'm getting back to his word and back to the heart of worship. I'M NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FEAR.  I HAVE DOMINION. I WILL SPEAK OUT.

S: “Know the state of your flocks, and put your heart into caring for your herds, for riches don’t last forever, and the crown might not be passed to the next generation.” Proverbs 27:23-24 NLT

O: The King James Version says, be diligent to know about your flocks. Flocks and herds in biblical times were like currency. The more flocks and herds, the more you were presumed to have. The more riches you presumed to have, yet those riches don't last. Who is to say the crown of riches or even the crown of life will be passed on to the next generation? Therefore, be diligent, know your worth, and put your heart into it.

A: God is showing me this verse is not just about my worth in money, but also my value. If I am not diligent in how I manage my money, time and gift, my daughter won't know how to manage her money, time and gift. I have to put my heart in it, by being more intentional and deliberate in how I use my money, time and gift. She deserves a crown, the crown and its up to me to show her the right way to go.

P: You're a good, good father!!!! Oh how you love!!!! You are graceful and magnificent in all your ways! Your name is greater and higher than any other! Your kingdom is here and I have dominion. Your will be done that I will be fruitful. Multiply the blessing you have for me. Give me back myself. The true me that you speak of in Jeremiah 1:5. The true me you approve of. Please forgive me for being neglectful with my money, time and gift. I lost myself at a young age and instead of standing in my identity in you I allowed the enemy to define me. I begin my journey back to me, back to you so that I can pour into Kamea all you have destined for her. She deserves the life you have paved out for her. I forgive myself for allowing others to mistreat me and take advantage of me. I will be diligent in knowing my flocks and my herds with my heart. Lead me away from those whose advice confuse and discourage me. Help me filter out what they say and not take it personal. Deliver me from the hands of the enemy. For you are God and you have made a way! Your love never fails. You have the authority over my situation. You have the power, it is for your glory. Inorayvthisball in the mighty name of JESUS, amen.

I Obey Your Instruction

S: “Everything in me will celebrate when you speak what is right. Don’t envy sinners, but always continue to fear the LORD. You will be rewarded for this; your hope will not be disappointed. My child, listen and be wise: Keep your heart on the right course.” Proverbs 23:16-19 NLT

O: I hear God saying to me, "I have gifted you to speak. When you speak from the true you, from what is right, I can't help but to celebrate! Don't worry about the schemes of the enemy, continue tinder me and I got you. I will reward you, your hope will not be let down. My child you are on the right path. Don't give up, continue to listen. You are smart, be wise in your decisions. Above all else, keep your heart on my instruction, it is the right course."

A: I have no choice but to speak out from the wisdom and authority God has given me.

P: You are wonderful! How magnificent and glorious is your name! Thank you for your dominion, your will and your instruction. I hear you God and I choose to obey your instruction. Give me strength for today. Help me to meditate and relax in you. Forgive me my sins as I forgive those who have sinned against me. Deliver me from behaving in fear, may I praise you instead. In Jesus name, amen.

Take Precautions

S: “A prudent person foresees danger and takes precautions. The simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences.” Proverbs 22:3 NLT

“Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.” Proverbs 22:6 NKJV

O: Take precautions or suffer the consequences. Both will train Kamea in the way she should go which will be the one I want to stick with her.

A: I am in the battle of my life. If I continue to ignore the situation and be blind to the control not only will I suffer the consequences, so will my daughter. I have to embrace who I am in God, forsee the danger my situation can escalate to and take precautions. I need to be smart and strategic about the next steps for myself and also for my daughter.

P: Sovereign Lord, your promise says, you e prepared a table! And even in the presence of my enemies I know, YOU'RE STILL GOD!!!! Open my eyes to the danger, may I no longer be naive and blind to what's going on. You alone are good, you alone are God. You are the gift to the giver. You let me see your face, you let see your throne. You've blessed me with your presence. Let me bless you with my worship!!!!! In Jesus name, amen!

Your battle, your victory!

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O: Yesterday someone told me, "you never know, God can be doing something different then what you're thinking the outcome can be." I thought to myself, I already made up in my mind I'm done. I deserve better than this. As I continued the conversation in my head, I concluded, I am believing for the best but I am preparing for the worse.

A: Whatever the outcome maybe, this is a battle. My husband married the old me and I am transforming into the true me. It's a hard process and it hurts. I think of the transformation from a caterpillar to a butterfly. I'm in my cocoon and he's on the outside and doesn't understand the process. He's still the old and hasn't discovered his true self therefore would rather flea then try to understand and better himself. It's a battle and I'm believing for the best and prepared for the worse out come according to Gods will. For he gets the victory! The battle is his and the victory is his! 

P: You are amazing God! There is none like you great God! Holy and mighty! Strong and merciful! Holy is your name, sovereign father. You have the dominion and the authority! I give myself away and trust you with my situation. Give me you oh Lord as I cry out. I need you to walk with me! Forgive me for trying to take matters into my own hands. I know you are the risen King and can do anything. I forgive my husband, for he knows not what he does. Deliver me from soul ties and the comfort I find in being a victim. I have been victimized but I am not a victim, I have victory!!!! I praise you for who you are, the one true God, magnificent in glory. Thank for being an awesome God. In your sons precious name I pray, amen!

God take the Wheel

S: “Evil will never leave the house of one who pays back evil for good.” Proverbs 17:13 NIV

O: It's extremely hard to watch someone you love behave badly toward you. It stirs up worry, anxiety, and strife. The human response is to make them feel bad back. My mom use to say, "two wrongs don't make a right." 

A: Moment by moment I have a choice to commit my actions to God or to react in my flesh toward my husband. All through out today's reading, commiting myself, including my actions to God is the right response. It doesn't mean I'm weak and allowing him to step all over me. It means I have allowed God to take the wheel.

P: Oh loving God, holy is your name and vengeance is yours! As your kingdom comes to earth and your will be done in my situation I pray for John. I have read in your word what happens to those who mess with your anointed. He does not know what he is doing. Whatever you do, don't kill him God. Give me strength to execute your word today. I commit my actions, my response and myself to you so your plans, not mine will be established. Forgive me for not trusting you fully with my burdens. I forgive my mom for blaming me for her addiction and allowing her to speak down about me. Lead me away from this toxic relationship with John as he is blaming me for his addiction and speaking down to me. Deliver me from worry, anxiety and fear. Replace your truth in all the places these lies have held. For your glory God, not my will, but yours be done. In the precious name of Jesus, amen!

Commit to God

9/16/16

Full of Light

S: “The life of the godly is full of light and joy, but the light of the wicked will be snuffed out.” Proverbs 13:9 NLT

O: God gives us his light, a symbol of life. He gave of his sons life, to rescue us from darkness. Colossians 1:13 says, “For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves,". 

Therefore through Christ we have life, eternal life. With that we also have joy for ourselves and for others. However, those who are wicked don't allow themselves to be rescued and as a result their life will see death. 

A: I am Gods child. I am royalty and I am his masterpiece. I have life. Therefore, I can have joy despite any situation I face. 

P: You give life oh Sovereign God and you have given us joy! How great and how awesome are you!!!! Holy, holy, holy, is your name! You have brought us into your kingdom. You have made your will known in our lives. You deserve all the praise! Give me the day to live out your will with strength, dignity and humility. Forgive me for not coming to you with my burdens. I also forgive myself for accepting the blame of others. Lead me Lord to live according to Christ's standard, not mans. Deliver me now as you have done before. I exalt you over my situation. Show me how to love myself as you love me. I pray this all in the glorious name of Jesus, amen!

I am worth it!

S: “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, But he who heeds counsel is wise.”

Proverbs 12:15 NKJV

“Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up.” Proverbs 12:25 NIV

O: Verse 15 is reiterating we can't rely on our own strength. In Proverbs 11:14 it says there is safety in having many advisers. Jumping back to verse it's not just about having the advisers, but doing what they counsel, what they advise. 

A: If I continue to wallow in self pity the anxiety of my situation will bring me down and keep me here. If I take heed to the wise advice that has been given to me , I need to receive the kind words, rise in self worth and move through the situation. 

P: I know you are for me great God. I know who you are in all your majesty, you have not forsaken me in my weakness. I know your kingdom is here. I know your will for my life and my heart can't dance without it. God I need your help in standing firm on my identity in you. You thought I was to die for!!!! May I take heed to your promises and take heed to the many advisers you have placed around me. You are great and mighty. No matter the events of the day, may I never cease to praise you. In Jesus name, amen!

The Name of the Righteous is Blessed

S: “The name of the righteous is used in blessings, but the name of the wicked will rot.” Proverbs 10:7 NIV

“The way of the LORD is a stronghold to those with integrity, but it destroys the wicked.” Proverbs 10:29 NLT

O: Our name is our identity. For most, it's also our brand. Biblically names are very important. Often times a name came from what the mother was experiencing at the time of her birth. For Jabaz, it was pain, for Judah it was praise. Jesus himself is the name above all names. Notice that some names are continuously talked about through out the Bible, Abraham, Issac and Jacob. Also notice modern times, we still hear those names, Abraham, Issac and Jacob, Joshua, Caleb, Elizabeth, Mary. We  don't really here people named Judas or Cain. For those who wer righteous God honored their name and those who were wicked, there name faded into history never to be heard of again.

A: God lifts my name up. Being obedient to his instruction as my strength and my foundation for integrity he will bless me and my name be spread around the world. When I try to do things on my own accord no one will know my name and I will destroy myself with pride.

P: My father I adore you more than anything my heart could wish for. I want more and more of you. Your name is higher than any other. Your kingdom is great and your will is divine. Give me you Lord. I don't want more of anything without you. Your blessings are better than my desires. Your ways are definitely better than my ways. Forgive me for not coming to you with my burdens and trusting more in my own strength. I don't want to destroy myself and my name to rot. Deliver me from my old self. May I rise as your servant. You are wonderful! May all I do be in your power and for your glory. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.

Thy will be done

S: “I love those who love me, And those who seek me diligently will find me.”

Proverbs 8:17 NKJV

“For whoever finds me finds life, And obtains favor from the LORD;”

Proverbs 8:35 NKJV

O: I am noticing lately that I am giving myself too much glory. I hold my head high and proclaim all the amazing things God is doing through me. I do it in such a way I am acknowledging myself more than God. I am forgetting the order here.

A: If I do things off of my own accord I will never succeed in my business. I will never have victory over my health and over my marriage. Doing things in my power will not have a longing reward. I need the power of someone greater, someone higher someone much more powerful than I. It's by my relationship with Christ and being apart of the family of God that I am still standing. Therefore when I seek wisdom through his instruction, I will find wisdom. Oh and because I love wisdom, when I find it i will find life and have favor from God. 

P: Lord I'm searching! Lord I'm seeking! For you my Lord, for you my Jesus! For you are great and because I have kingship, I have dominion over my thoughts. I know that you are for me. I know that you would never forsake me. So not my will, BUT YOURS BE DONE! Let thy will be done from the inside out! Give me today a renewed spirit. Holy Spirt it's all about you. I follow the pillar by day and the fire by night. Forgive me God for boasting in myself. I never would have made it, I am never going to make it without you. You deserve all the praise! Deliver me from myself. Lead me away from being in love with what you're doing over in love with who you are. Your will God I live for!!!! In the name of Jesus, amen!

 

Show Discernment

S: “My son, pay attention to my wisdom; listen carefully to my wise counsel. Then you will show discernment, and your lips will express what you’ve learned.”

Proverbs 5:1-2 NLT

O: Pay attention, listen carefully, then show discernment and your lips will express. In that order.

A: It's a blessing to go from selective mutism, (the inability to speak in certain social settings), to professional speaker. However, it doesn't mean that I speak all the time and speak meaninglessly. I need to speak in obedience to who God has called me to be. By first paying attention to his wisdom, not mine or the wisdom of the world. By listening to those God has put in my life to guide me. Then my behavior will reflect discernment and when I speak I will deliver wise counsel.

P: You are a good good father! Magnificent in all your ways. I am thankful you sent your son from heaven to earth to show us the way, the truth and the life. God give me you! Give me your desires, nothing else will do. Forgive me for taking on the wisdom of the world instead of trusting you. I will pay attention to your word, I will listen more and show others that I am your child. I will speak with the anointing you have given me whenever I open my mouth to speak. Otherwise I won't say anything at all. You are amazing God! Worthy of all the honor and all the praise! I pray this in the name of Jesus amen.

Likewise

S: “When you walk, their counsel will lead you. When you sleep, they will protect you. When you wake up, they will advise you. For their command is a lamp and their instruction a light; their corrective discipline is the way to life.”

Proverbs 6:22-23 NLT

O: I love my daughter and I will do anything for her. I am patient with her and speak to her in a way that edifies her. I am concerned with her development and do whatever I can to teach her values and principles to be who God created her to be. Likewise, my mentees deserve the same. They are lives God put in my life to edify, develop and teach to be who he has created them to be. My heart breaks for them just as my heart breaks for my daughter. 

A: Speaking wise counsel into the lives of my mentees is therefore crucial. For when they walk, my counsel will lead them. When they sleep, my prayers will protect them. When they wake up, I will advise them according to biblical instruction. For my command from God is a lamp and the instruction a light; the corrective discipline is the way to life. My mentees are my spiritual children, I will do what I need to do to help them fulfill their God given gifts.

P: Lord you are my God and I will forever praise you!!!! You are worthy to be praised in every area of our lives. Who am I that you would trust me with your children's lives? I am but your servant. I surrender all to you. Let your kingdom come. Let your will be done in them and through them. Give me the strength to endure and the discernment to know I need rest to recharge. Forgive me for neglectig myself. I know I am better when I do self-care. Lead my thoughts and actions to be of you. Deliver me from any thought or action not of you. You have given me the authority and everything I do is for your glory. In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

Listen, Liz, listen

S: “My child, listen to me and do as I say, and you will have a long, good life. I will teach you wisdom’s ways and lead you in straight paths. When you walk, you won’t be held back; when you run, you won’t stumble. Take hold of my instructions; don’t let them go. Guard them, for they are the key to life.” Proverbs 4:10-13 NLT

O: What a perfect timing to be reading Proverbs! Yesterday I gave birth to my dream!!!! I have a new born and I need to nurture it and provide it love and attention until it's full grown and out live me. I need to develop it and use my gifts to make it better. Many people will give their opinion on how I should nurse it, mature it, get it prepared for the world. Every opinion is worth listening to but not worth implementing. I will find a hand full of people that will help raise it to the level of excellence it's needing to succeed. I definitely know and understand it takes a village and I am not the only influence. Yet the biggest influence that drives it is the Holy Spirits guidance. 

A: When God speaks to me through the Holy Spirit. I can't hesitate or over analyze his promptings. It's not the time to question or doubt my gifts. It's not the time to cower in fear. My dream is here, alive and kicking! Sign, sealed and delivered by the God almighty. It is time to listen and do! The result is a long good life! In the process I will learn wisdom and  follow the straight path paved out just for me. Whoo, I will not walk in defeat, I won't be held back any longer!!!! Hallelujah, when I grind I will not stumble. There will be no hinderence! 

P: Glory to God! Your name is higher than any other! You have given me instruction on my part in your kingdom, I won't walk away! I won't let them go! I will guard your instruction for your name sake! Give me more and more of your presence God! Teach me how to love like you have loved me! Forgive my unbelief as I forgive those close to me that don't believe in me or are intimidated by my trust in you! Lead me Lord and I will follow your decrees as they guide me away from all that tempts me. Deliver me from anyone or anything that may come between the dream you have birthed from within me. By the power of your son Jesus name I pray, amen!!!!

The Best Part of Me

S: “Honor the LORD with your wealth and with the best part of everything you produce. Then he will fill your barns with grain, and your vats will overflow with good wine.” Proverbs 3:9-10 NLT

“Do not withhold good from those who deserve it when it’s in your power to help them.” Proverbs 3:27 NLT

O: Wealth is an abundance of valuable possession or money. It's having prosperity in every area of your life. In your faith, finances, time, talents, and health. In each of these areas we must honor God. Not just in doing just enough, but giving the best part of us and giving the best of what we produce from faith, finances, giving of our time, talents and also in health. Then we will receive an overflow of blessing. We must do and be our true selves, which is our best self, in every area of our lives to reap the blessings of God.

A: Doing and being the best part of me is being obedient to what God tells me to do without hesitation or delay. Yesterday God spoke to me to reach out to my mother-in-law. Our relationship hasn't been the greatest. We deal with each other because we share one similar interest. However, God spoke to me to stop looking at her from a "have to deal with her perspective" and instead use my faith, finances, time, talents, and health to restore her back to who he created her to be. Therefore, I can no longer withhold genuine good from her. She deserves the best parts of me because it is in my power,  through my gifting a, to help her.

P: Our father, all of heaven roars your name. How great and how awesome are you! Your kingdom is here! Your will for Mary's life will be done! Hallelujah! Give me strength to help guide your daughter back to a love encounter with you. Prepare her heart for what you will do within her. Forgive me for not receiving her as your child. I also forgive her for not accepting me. Lead both of our hearts to a deeper understanding of each other, as you seem fit. Deliver us from our past hurts and issues that will hinder what needs to take place. For you have the authority to restore! In your power and for your glory I pray this all in the name of Jesus, the name that is above all names. Amen.