Be diligent.

Yesterday as I flirted with the idea of falling into a depression I stopped myself to ask why. My therapist is praying a great prayer over me yet my mind is going in different directions. Why didn't I speak up on the call? Why do I feel like I can't hear God's voice? I take a deep breath and loud and clear I hear God say my voice is drowned out by all the others you've allowed to hear and accept. Get back to hearing my voice over all the others. Get back to my word.

I'm getting back to his word and back to the heart of worship. I'M NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FEAR.  I HAVE DOMINION. I WILL SPEAK OUT.

S: “Know the state of your flocks, and put your heart into caring for your herds, for riches don’t last forever, and the crown might not be passed to the next generation.” Proverbs 27:23-24 NLT

O: The King James Version says, be diligent to know about your flocks. Flocks and herds in biblical times were like currency. The more flocks and herds, the more you were presumed to have. The more riches you presumed to have, yet those riches don't last. Who is to say the crown of riches or even the crown of life will be passed on to the next generation? Therefore, be diligent, know your worth, and put your heart into it.

A: God is showing me this verse is not just about my worth in money, but also my value. If I am not diligent in how I manage my money, time and gift, my daughter won't know how to manage her money, time and gift. I have to put my heart in it, by being more intentional and deliberate in how I use my money, time and gift. She deserves a crown, the crown and its up to me to show her the right way to go.

P: You're a good, good father!!!! Oh how you love!!!! You are graceful and magnificent in all your ways! Your name is greater and higher than any other! Your kingdom is here and I have dominion. Your will be done that I will be fruitful. Multiply the blessing you have for me. Give me back myself. The true me that you speak of in Jeremiah 1:5. The true me you approve of. Please forgive me for being neglectful with my money, time and gift. I lost myself at a young age and instead of standing in my identity in you I allowed the enemy to define me. I begin my journey back to me, back to you so that I can pour into Kamea all you have destined for her. She deserves the life you have paved out for her. I forgive myself for allowing others to mistreat me and take advantage of me. I will be diligent in knowing my flocks and my herds with my heart. Lead me away from those whose advice confuse and discourage me. Help me filter out what they say and not take it personal. Deliver me from the hands of the enemy. For you are God and you have made a way! Your love never fails. You have the authority over my situation. You have the power, it is for your glory. Inorayvthisball in the mighty name of JESUS, amen.

I Obey Your Instruction

S: “Everything in me will celebrate when you speak what is right. Don’t envy sinners, but always continue to fear the LORD. You will be rewarded for this; your hope will not be disappointed. My child, listen and be wise: Keep your heart on the right course.” Proverbs 23:16-19 NLT

O: I hear God saying to me, "I have gifted you to speak. When you speak from the true you, from what is right, I can't help but to celebrate! Don't worry about the schemes of the enemy, continue tinder me and I got you. I will reward you, your hope will not be let down. My child you are on the right path. Don't give up, continue to listen. You are smart, be wise in your decisions. Above all else, keep your heart on my instruction, it is the right course."

A: I have no choice but to speak out from the wisdom and authority God has given me.

P: You are wonderful! How magnificent and glorious is your name! Thank you for your dominion, your will and your instruction. I hear you God and I choose to obey your instruction. Give me strength for today. Help me to meditate and relax in you. Forgive me my sins as I forgive those who have sinned against me. Deliver me from behaving in fear, may I praise you instead. In Jesus name, amen.

Take Precautions

S: “A prudent person foresees danger and takes precautions. The simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences.” Proverbs 22:3 NLT

“Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.” Proverbs 22:6 NKJV

O: Take precautions or suffer the consequences. Both will train Kamea in the way she should go which will be the one I want to stick with her.

A: I am in the battle of my life. If I continue to ignore the situation and be blind to the control not only will I suffer the consequences, so will my daughter. I have to embrace who I am in God, forsee the danger my situation can escalate to and take precautions. I need to be smart and strategic about the next steps for myself and also for my daughter.

P: Sovereign Lord, your promise says, you e prepared a table! And even in the presence of my enemies I know, YOU'RE STILL GOD!!!! Open my eyes to the danger, may I no longer be naive and blind to what's going on. You alone are good, you alone are God. You are the gift to the giver. You let me see your face, you let see your throne. You've blessed me with your presence. Let me bless you with my worship!!!!! In Jesus name, amen!

Your battle, your victory!

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O: Yesterday someone told me, "you never know, God can be doing something different then what you're thinking the outcome can be." I thought to myself, I already made up in my mind I'm done. I deserve better than this. As I continued the conversation in my head, I concluded, I am believing for the best but I am preparing for the worse.

A: Whatever the outcome maybe, this is a battle. My husband married the old me and I am transforming into the true me. It's a hard process and it hurts. I think of the transformation from a caterpillar to a butterfly. I'm in my cocoon and he's on the outside and doesn't understand the process. He's still the old and hasn't discovered his true self therefore would rather flea then try to understand and better himself. It's a battle and I'm believing for the best and prepared for the worse out come according to Gods will. For he gets the victory! The battle is his and the victory is his! 

P: You are amazing God! There is none like you great God! Holy and mighty! Strong and merciful! Holy is your name, sovereign father. You have the dominion and the authority! I give myself away and trust you with my situation. Give me you oh Lord as I cry out. I need you to walk with me! Forgive me for trying to take matters into my own hands. I know you are the risen King and can do anything. I forgive my husband, for he knows not what he does. Deliver me from soul ties and the comfort I find in being a victim. I have been victimized but I am not a victim, I have victory!!!! I praise you for who you are, the one true God, magnificent in glory. Thank for being an awesome God. In your sons precious name I pray, amen!

God take the Wheel

S: “Evil will never leave the house of one who pays back evil for good.” Proverbs 17:13 NIV

O: It's extremely hard to watch someone you love behave badly toward you. It stirs up worry, anxiety, and strife. The human response is to make them feel bad back. My mom use to say, "two wrongs don't make a right." 

A: Moment by moment I have a choice to commit my actions to God or to react in my flesh toward my husband. All through out today's reading, commiting myself, including my actions to God is the right response. It doesn't mean I'm weak and allowing him to step all over me. It means I have allowed God to take the wheel.

P: Oh loving God, holy is your name and vengeance is yours! As your kingdom comes to earth and your will be done in my situation I pray for John. I have read in your word what happens to those who mess with your anointed. He does not know what he is doing. Whatever you do, don't kill him God. Give me strength to execute your word today. I commit my actions, my response and myself to you so your plans, not mine will be established. Forgive me for not trusting you fully with my burdens. I forgive my mom for blaming me for her addiction and allowing her to speak down about me. Lead me away from this toxic relationship with John as he is blaming me for his addiction and speaking down to me. Deliver me from worry, anxiety and fear. Replace your truth in all the places these lies have held. For your glory God, not my will, but yours be done. In the precious name of Jesus, amen!

Commit to God

9/16/16

Full of Light

S: “The life of the godly is full of light and joy, but the light of the wicked will be snuffed out.” Proverbs 13:9 NLT

O: God gives us his light, a symbol of life. He gave of his sons life, to rescue us from darkness. Colossians 1:13 says, “For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves,". 

Therefore through Christ we have life, eternal life. With that we also have joy for ourselves and for others. However, those who are wicked don't allow themselves to be rescued and as a result their life will see death. 

A: I am Gods child. I am royalty and I am his masterpiece. I have life. Therefore, I can have joy despite any situation I face. 

P: You give life oh Sovereign God and you have given us joy! How great and how awesome are you!!!! Holy, holy, holy, is your name! You have brought us into your kingdom. You have made your will known in our lives. You deserve all the praise! Give me the day to live out your will with strength, dignity and humility. Forgive me for not coming to you with my burdens. I also forgive myself for accepting the blame of others. Lead me Lord to live according to Christ's standard, not mans. Deliver me now as you have done before. I exalt you over my situation. Show me how to love myself as you love me. I pray this all in the glorious name of Jesus, amen!