Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you. (Ephesians 4:31-32 NLT)
talk about whatever is worrying you, unload your burdens, and listen for God's direction.
- "The man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it - he will be blessed in what he does." (James 1:25 NIV)
S: I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him. (Psalms 62:1 NLT)
O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. Interlude (Psalms 62:8 NLT)
O: I'm tired of initiating. I'm tired of being the one to compromise, understand, reach out, is over committed and obsessed. But I must get rid of all this bitterness toward my spouse. All the rage, anger, harsh words and slander needs to go. As well as all evil behavior and thoughts. Instead, kindness must be expressed. I must be tender hearted and forgive him for not being what I need in a husband. Just as God forgives me daily.
A: I am victory, yet victory comes from you. Not by my many words, but by waiting quietly before God. I can't trust God when it's convenient for me. I will trust him at all times in every area of my life especially my marriage.
P: God hear/here is my heart. I lift up whatever is going on in my neck. Please heal me oh mighty God. I'm worried about compatibility and intellect with John. I'm not trying to diminish who you have called him to be. I just am not sold on the fact he is right for me. Why does the transformation of my life motivate him to look deeper within himself? I know he's as broken as me and maybe worse than me. It takes a lot to overcome. I just don't want to be stuck picking up the pieces of his life. Am I not ready to bloom because my husband is unable to detect that he's crying out for help? How do I speak about what I have came out of and challenge others to do the same when my husband is still the same emotionally. I have never been able to open up to him. I've tried God to focus on me and I don't like being convicted before I finish a thought. Is it not okay for me to want to feel loved? To feel as I am his number 1? Something always comes in the middle of us. A new job, Jiu jitsu, football. If I come to his arena of expertise we're great but when I try to lift him up to mine it's selfish. I desire big things I need a big man to help fulfill that. Let's turn this to me. Give me wisdom and discernment to evaluate my heart. If this is truly who I am called to be with, soften my heart and open up love. If this is not who I am meant to be with give me peace. Change my heart oh God I am in a bitter, slanderous, out raged and anger state of mind regarding my marriage. You are my refuge. You give me freedom. I don't want to forget your promises, I want to live by your principles that you have given through your word. Bless me indeed!!!! In Jesus name, thanks for listening. Amen.
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