Promise to God

S: “And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God’s purpose is that people should fear him.”

Ecclesiastes 3:14 NLT

“So I saw that there is nothing better for people than to be happy in their work. That is our lot in life. And no one can bring us back to see what happens after we die.” Ecclesiastes 3:22 NLT

“Too much activity gives you restless dreams; too many words make you a fool. When you make a promise to God, don’t delay in following through, for God takes no pleasure in fools. Keep all the promises you make to him. It is better to say nothing than to make a promise and not keep it.” Ecclesiastes 5:3-5 NLT

“Don’t let your mouth make you sin. And don’t defend yourself by telling the Temple messenger that the promise you made was a mistake. That would make God angry, and he might wipe out everything you have achieved.”

Ecclesiastes 5:6 NLT

O: God's purpose for my life is final. I can't add or take away from my story. I am who I am and my purpose is to live in reverence to the Kings of Kings. Therefore there is nothing better  than being happy to my work for Christ. This is my life. I can only live it one way, there is no second chance. 

A: It is necessary I stop doing the most. Instead of looking at Isaacs as a burden, I should look at watching Jonathan. It's okay to say no. If that means Rachel would say no in watching Kamea that's okay. The promises I made to God in mastering my craft I can't delay in following through. There are lives at stake. If I make a promise to God it has to be kept. Otherwise, no promise should be made that cannot be kept. My gift to speak is not to be taking advantage of and cause myself to sin. My anointing is not to defend myself for my mistakes that will cause God to be angry with me an all I have achieved will be nothing.

P: What an intense moment host of heaven. You are serious about who you are and how your children reflect you. Great is your mercy toward me. My dominon and power comes from you. God you reign over us all, may your kingdom come to earth. Your will is established in my life. No longer will I use it to excuse me from keeping my promises to you. Deliver me from distractions and help me refocus my life to your will. I will continue to serve with Isaac and limit how I serve Rachel and Jonathan. It's my turn. In the name of Jesus amen!

Never satisfied

S: “A person who is full refuses honey, but even bitter food tastes sweet to the hungry.” Proverbs 27:7 NLT

“As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person. Just as Death and Destruction are never satisfied, so human desire is never satisfied.” Proverbs 27:19-20 NLT

“People who conceal their sins will not prosper, but if they confess and turn from them, they will receive mercy. Blessed are those who fear to do wrong, but the stubborn are headed for serious trouble.”

Proverbs 28:13-14 NLT

O: I can't live in my anointing by not living a healthy life. It is okay to refuse what may seem to be honey when I'm full. It's not okay to continue eating bitter food when I'm hungry. I have to draw the line somewhere. My health depends on me. My heart is a reflection of me. If an X-ray were to be taken there would be layers of thick fat around it. My heart can't flow and fully function as it is suppose to because  it's weighed down by the fat. Growing up I was always angry. I would destroy others property and be very destructive in my words. Yet I was never satisfied. Likewise, I can continue to destroy my body and eat destructively but what food is trying to replace will never be satisfied.

A: I have let others be aware of my sin of unhealthy eating and I will prosper! To confess is the first step, to turn away from unhealthy eating will cause me to receive mercy! My fear shouldn't be the emotion I'm trying to hide but fear in doing wrong will lead to my blessing. It's time to walk into my blessing. No more stubbornness with weight loss, no more trouble with kissing weight.

P: Abba, you are my hope, my living hope. Your name is great and worthy to be praised. As I take my place in the kingship may my body reflect what you are doing to my inner man. As I resolve issues, let my pounds dissolve. God I desire to be the true me in every meaning of the word. Show me your grace. Show me your way. May I increase in favor beyond these 52 days. I need professional help. I don't have money to do so. May I get a trainer who will pour time into me in becoming the true me. I long to live off your bread alone. No longer thirsting for the delicacies if this world. God I know I've come to you before about this issue. I want it to be the last time. I know you hear me and will answer me for I know my weight is not in accordance to your will. Deliver me from myself. I want to be an emotionally healthy eater. In Jesus name, amen.

Prayer

Holy and magnificent father. How great and wonderful is your name. There is no one like you. You have created us to have dominion over the earth by bringing heaven down. It is your will for our lives. The world has diluted us and our kingship. I pray for the eyes of your people to open and see the royalty within them. Give me the words to say to your children in Sun Valley. I thought you woke me up one morning with what to say. If I did not capture that may it be re written. Take me out of the picture and use my voice to articulate your will for their lives. It's all about you oh God. You gave me the skills. It is by your grace I have the opportunity. Not my will, but yours be done. I pray also for Kilesha as she is in proration of her speech as well. Remove her and cover her with your spirit and met the spirit be heard through her. Give her courage and confidence to use her voice for your glory. Deliver us from fear and any disbelief. I realize today that walking in fear automatically gives the enemy authority. I want to walk in faith through your grace. It's who you are. I think you and I praise you for all you are. In Jesus name, amen.

My and my hope

S: “Don’t put your confidence in powerful people; there is no help for you there. Psalms 146:3 NLT

But joyful are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the LORD their God. He made heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them. He keeps every promise forever.”

Psalms 146:5-6 NLT

“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms 147:3 NLT

“Let every created thing give praise to the LORD, for he issued his command, and they came into being. He set them in place forever and ever. His decree will never be revoked.” Psalms 148:5-6 NLT

O: Johnny, Mary and Paul were the first to believe in me. Pastor and Sister G believed in me. In youth I was prophesied over and in Masters when I spent the summer in Riverton. Then Chris, John, BU and now Patrick. Despite of the power each of these people or experiences carry, my confidence does not stand on them or in them. My confidence comes from God and it is in me. God is my help. My hope is only in him. He is the creator. His creation is proof his promises last forever.  I am his and he sees me. He heals my broken heart and bandages upmost wounds, there are many.  

A: Just as I should have a habit of prayer, I should habitually praise!!!! For he has issued his command and it cannot be revoked. When I fully remove me from my relationship with him, as a wife, as a mother in my education and in my business, his will will be all that remains. Doing things due to convenience only shows I still live in fear. Since Gods perfect I've for me has castes out that fear it's time to be set free and walk a new walk with God that exalts him.

P: Abba! There is no other name so majestic and holy. You are my help and my hopes. You created me to have dominion and bring your kingdom down to earth through sharing my story. I am not ashamed of you but ashamed that there are many others like me. Yet my story gives them hope for redemption. Remove me and look at me. May your favor shine upon me. Let fear be broke and no longer hinder me from your commands over my life.  Give me strength that only comes from you to endure. Deliver me from myself and wrap me in you're arms. Never let me go. You are wonderful!!!! In Jesus name, amen.

If my people pray

S: “Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land. My eyes will be open and my ears attentive to every prayer made in this place. For I have chosen this Temple and set it apart to be holy—a place where my name will be honored forever. I will always watch over it, for it is dear to my heart.”

2 Chronicles 7:14-16 NLT

“He brought Israel out of Egypt. His faithful love endures forever. He acted with a strong hand and powerful arm. His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to him who parted the Red Sea. His faithful love endures forever. He led Israel safely through, His faithful love endures forever. but he hurled Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea. His faithful love endures forever. Give thanks to him who led his people through the wilderness. His faithful love endures forever.” Psalms 136:11-16 NLT

“He remembered us in our weakness. His faithful love endures forever. He saved us from our enemies. His faithful love endures forever.” Psalms 136:23-24 NLT

“Give thanks to the God of heaven. His faithful love endures forever.” Psalms 136:26 NLT

O: To remain in a Godspace, God needs to be our first habit. Just as Enoch habitually walked with God and Jesus often withdrew to be alone to pray we are to do likewise. What we do, we will be. It is a command from God. If we are called we are to humbly go to the throne and seek his face. Many people pray, what sets the called apart is that we pray to seek his face and then all the wickedness of our sins will be less and we will dwell in our Godspace. Seeking Gods face guarantees his response. He will forgive and restore us. Restore us according to his will! It's greater than our current circumstance. He opens himself up to us and is attentive to ever word we utter.

A: Paul said we will restore you back to your position. God said I will restore you for something more, who I have called you to be. There is no fear in love. To be in love I must be in God. When I am in God I dwell in my Godspace. Dwelling in my Godspace empowers me to speak out. It is only than that I can stand confident and courageous. For God has chosen me, my body is his temple for it where his spirit resides. Before I was formed in my mothers womb he set me apart as holy and I am to speak in honor of his name forever. I was voiceless, but I can no longer stay silent. His love is dear to my heart. 

I am no longer a slave to fear! His strong hand rescued me and his powerful arm holds me. He has made a way and leds me safely through. He has hurled those who have enslaved me into there Red Sea. He's led me through the wilderness until I knew who I was, remembered who I was. Yet again he is reminding me of what he has done, saving me from my weaknesses.

P: Oh how great are you my God!!!! You are always faithful! Your will forever endure. I am thankful for your name. I live my life to give you thanks for all you have done. I never want to forget your kingdom has come and your will will be done no matter what. For I will remain in you by dwelling in my Godspace. For your glory!!!! I will habitually walk with you. I can't make it on my own.  Give me you today Abba, all I need is you. Your presence is where I belong. Come walk with me. I invite you to speak to my heart. All of me only you know, like Enoch walk habitually with me. Lead me!!!! Deliver me oh God from taking on Johns emotion as my own. For allowing his trials to be come mine. Give me strength as his wife to love and support him through his Red Sea. I am his Moses. Leading him to you and praying on his behalf!!!! Hallelujah!!!!! You are good good father!!!! Thank you for loving me in Jesua name, amen.

June 11

S: “Listen to the words of the wise; apply your heart to my instruction. For it is good to keep these sayings in your heart and always ready on your lips. I am teaching you today—yes, you— so you will trust in the LORD.”

Proverbs 22:17-19 NLT

“Commit yourself to instruction; listen carefully to words of knowledge. Don’t fail to discipline your children. The rod of punishment won’t kill them. Physical discipline may well save them from death. My child, if your heart is wise, my own heart will rejoice! Everything in me will celebrate when you speak what is right." Proverbs 23:12-16 NLT

“My child, listen and be wise: Keep your heart on the right course.” Proverbs 23:19 NLT

“Do your planning and prepare your fields before building your house.” Proverbs 24:27 NLT

O: The Scriptures from these 3 readings all point to the 3 things that will help me to stop punishing myself, 1 receiving God's love, 2 renewing my mind by studying his word and 3 gaining wisdom and understanding.

A: These are not just scriptures chosen for SOAP. I need to mediate on them and allow them to soak into my heart. For they are the foundation of truth to replace the hurt. They are my new coping skill! Listen, apply, keep in my heart and ready on my lips. Learn from biblical instruction and grow through physical discipline. 

P: Here I am. Worshipping you!!!! With all I am worshiping you! With lifted hands, worshipping you!!!! I'm going to worship you forever, I'm going to worship you!!!! In Jesus name, amen.

June 10

S: “To acquire wisdom is to love yourself; people who cherish understanding will prosper.” Proverbs 19:8 NLT

“Get all the advice and instruction you can, so you will be wise the rest of your life. You can make many plans, but the LORD’s purpose will prevail.” Proverbs 19:20-21 NLT

“If you stop listening to instruction, my child, you will turn your back on knowledge.”

Proverbs 19:27 NLT

“Plans succeed through good counsel; don’t go to war without wise advice.” Proverbs 20:18 NLT

“The LORD directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? Don’t trap yourself by making a rash promise to God and only later counting the cost.”

Proverbs 20:24-25 NLT

“People may be right in their own eyes, but the LORD examines their heart.” Proverbs 21:2 NLT