Her Deeds

S: “Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.”

Proverbs 31:30-31 NLT

O: Attractiveness can be misleading. Outward beauty does not last. The biblical women even Rahab a prostitute were greatly praises due to their fear of God. Her reward comes from what she has done, her actions will cause praise.

A: There are no amount of words I can say that can compel me to the level of greatness God has for me than by simply being a woman who fears the Lord!!!! I must live as a woman of action. 

P: Today I will embark on a journey that will change lives. For it is by your grace oh God that I put my dreams and goals into action. Your kingdom come and rest upon me as I favor in executing your will. Give me you oh God, may your presence go before me. Deliver me from deception and false beauty. I long to make you great. I need to be and got be in you, where you are, where you lead, where you speak. I need to be where you are dwelling in you. You are sovereign and magnificent. I am hungry for you oh Lord. I ask for guidance in writing the speech for my ice breaker and my world champion speeches. You are great! Be over my application for ministerial training and should I continue school in the fall or wait for another time. You are glorious! I pray and ask these things by the bar and sooner of the Lord Jesus Christ, amen.

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God Does Not Forget

S: ““‘But I will not take the entire kingdom from Solomon at this time. For the sake of my servant David, the one whom I chose and who obeyed my commands and decrees, I will keep Solomon as leader for the rest of his life.

His son will have one tribe so that the descendants of David my servant will continue to reign, shining like a lamp in Jerusalem, the city I have chosen to be the place for my name.” 1 Kings 11:34, 36 NLT

O: God does not forget what he has promised to those who have come before us. 

A: I can't get out of my mind what Grandmother said, "having pastors in my family must have skipped me." Solomon in his early Kingship followed God as David did but in his latter days his wives persuaded him otherwise. Therefore becuase of Solomons disobedience God does not continue his reign, but he doesn't forget what he has promised. 

     I don't know why Aunt Irene's side became Pastor's. I imagine they pursued what God called them too despite the oppression. Yet Grandmothers side was unable to have the oppression make room for them due to lack of faith. Nevertheless, the blessing of Grandmother was not forgotten. There was no one who would stand in the mist of there pain and trust God until a young girl dared to search out a love never felt so pure. She believed God, still trust God despite of those before her. My family is loyal and loving, passionate and respectful. We don't give up on those before us but we allow ourselves to be crippled by our surrounding. The blessings God has simply skipped them because  they didn't seek him in the good and bad. They knew of God but didn't allow him to take over there heart. But God never forget the blessing and remembered what he had promised to Grandmother.  Now, 4 generations later that blessing is coming to life. 

P: God, oh sovereign Father. Please will you carry your servant to see her promise fulfilled. May she be there front and center as you bless me as a licensed minister. In your mighty name I pray, amen.

Integrate

S: ““Accept the way God does things, for who can straighten what he has made crooked? Enjoy prosperity while you can, but when hard times strike, realize that both come from God. Remember that nothing is certain in this life.” Ecclesiastes 7:13-14 NLT

“So don’t be too good or too wise! Why destroy yourself? On the other hand, don’t be too wicked either. Don’t be a fool! Why die before your time? Pay attention to these instructions, for anyone who fears God will avoid both extremes.”

Ecclesiastes 7:16-18 NLT

“Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom.”

Ecclesiastes 9:10 NLT

“Happy is the land whose king is a noble leader and whose leaders feast at the proper time to gain strength for their work, not to get drunk.” Ecclesiastes 10:17 NLT

“Remember him before the door to life’s opportunities is closed and the sound of work fades. Now you rise at the first chirping of the birds, but then all their sounds will grow faint.” Ecclesiastes 12:4 NLT

O: God has taken the pain and tears from my past to use for my good. I will have joy and success! Even in my distress, for God is the God over the good or bad. He is the only sure thing. Therefore if our faith is in him we will conquer all. 

   Over thinking in wisdom will destroy me as much as being a ful will lead to a quick death. My good, my wisdom and my bad, my foolishness are all integrated to make the balance of who I am. Therefore having fear of God avoids teeter tootering  the extremes. 

   IT'S MY TIME!!!! My time to accomplish all God has called me to be despite what man have said and despite the behavior of those closest to me. Death comes for us all, the wise and the foolish alike. When it comes I will be out of time to do what he called me to do. Therefore I get work, planning, knowledge and wisdom now. Execution on my calling now will lead to happiness! For as I fulfill my calling, God fulfills his promises. All his promises including discipline and rest. Therefore to lead emotionally healthy I must discipline myself to rest at the proper time to gain strength for my work. The inconsistency of rest leads to laziness and the distorted me. 

[I am not my dysfunction. I am not my weight. My weight is a reflection of laziness, foolishness, dysfunction and false identity.]

P: I remember Abba! I remember you and how you have saved me from my dysfunction. Your name is might to save and mighty to deliver. I remember you! You have taken my foolishness and have given me life. It's nothing I need to prove to anyone except myself. The passion I had to speak out from pain I have the same passion to speak out from the pain but in a positive light. Your kingdom is here throug me. I have brought it down to earth. May faith arise! Integrate my wisdom and folly that I live in fear of only you! Deliver me from negative thinking. Integrate all of me!!!! In Jesus name!

Promise to God

S: “And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God’s purpose is that people should fear him.”

Ecclesiastes 3:14 NLT

“So I saw that there is nothing better for people than to be happy in their work. That is our lot in life. And no one can bring us back to see what happens after we die.” Ecclesiastes 3:22 NLT

“Too much activity gives you restless dreams; too many words make you a fool. When you make a promise to God, don’t delay in following through, for God takes no pleasure in fools. Keep all the promises you make to him. It is better to say nothing than to make a promise and not keep it.” Ecclesiastes 5:3-5 NLT

“Don’t let your mouth make you sin. And don’t defend yourself by telling the Temple messenger that the promise you made was a mistake. That would make God angry, and he might wipe out everything you have achieved.”

Ecclesiastes 5:6 NLT

O: God's purpose for my life is final. I can't add or take away from my story. I am who I am and my purpose is to live in reverence to the Kings of Kings. Therefore there is nothing better  than being happy to my work for Christ. This is my life. I can only live it one way, there is no second chance. 

A: It is necessary I stop doing the most. Instead of looking at Isaacs as a burden, I should look at watching Jonathan. It's okay to say no. If that means Rachel would say no in watching Kamea that's okay. The promises I made to God in mastering my craft I can't delay in following through. There are lives at stake. If I make a promise to God it has to be kept. Otherwise, no promise should be made that cannot be kept. My gift to speak is not to be taking advantage of and cause myself to sin. My anointing is not to defend myself for my mistakes that will cause God to be angry with me an all I have achieved will be nothing.

P: What an intense moment host of heaven. You are serious about who you are and how your children reflect you. Great is your mercy toward me. My dominon and power comes from you. God you reign over us all, may your kingdom come to earth. Your will is established in my life. No longer will I use it to excuse me from keeping my promises to you. Deliver me from distractions and help me refocus my life to your will. I will continue to serve with Isaac and limit how I serve Rachel and Jonathan. It's my turn. In the name of Jesus amen!

Never satisfied

S: “A person who is full refuses honey, but even bitter food tastes sweet to the hungry.” Proverbs 27:7 NLT

“As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person. Just as Death and Destruction are never satisfied, so human desire is never satisfied.” Proverbs 27:19-20 NLT

“People who conceal their sins will not prosper, but if they confess and turn from them, they will receive mercy. Blessed are those who fear to do wrong, but the stubborn are headed for serious trouble.”

Proverbs 28:13-14 NLT

O: I can't live in my anointing by not living a healthy life. It is okay to refuse what may seem to be honey when I'm full. It's not okay to continue eating bitter food when I'm hungry. I have to draw the line somewhere. My health depends on me. My heart is a reflection of me. If an X-ray were to be taken there would be layers of thick fat around it. My heart can't flow and fully function as it is suppose to because  it's weighed down by the fat. Growing up I was always angry. I would destroy others property and be very destructive in my words. Yet I was never satisfied. Likewise, I can continue to destroy my body and eat destructively but what food is trying to replace will never be satisfied.

A: I have let others be aware of my sin of unhealthy eating and I will prosper! To confess is the first step, to turn away from unhealthy eating will cause me to receive mercy! My fear shouldn't be the emotion I'm trying to hide but fear in doing wrong will lead to my blessing. It's time to walk into my blessing. No more stubbornness with weight loss, no more trouble with kissing weight.

P: Abba, you are my hope, my living hope. Your name is great and worthy to be praised. As I take my place in the kingship may my body reflect what you are doing to my inner man. As I resolve issues, let my pounds dissolve. God I desire to be the true me in every meaning of the word. Show me your grace. Show me your way. May I increase in favor beyond these 52 days. I need professional help. I don't have money to do so. May I get a trainer who will pour time into me in becoming the true me. I long to live off your bread alone. No longer thirsting for the delicacies if this world. God I know I've come to you before about this issue. I want it to be the last time. I know you hear me and will answer me for I know my weight is not in accordance to your will. Deliver me from myself. I want to be an emotionally healthy eater. In Jesus name, amen.

Prayer

Holy and magnificent father. How great and wonderful is your name. There is no one like you. You have created us to have dominion over the earth by bringing heaven down. It is your will for our lives. The world has diluted us and our kingship. I pray for the eyes of your people to open and see the royalty within them. Give me the words to say to your children in Sun Valley. I thought you woke me up one morning with what to say. If I did not capture that may it be re written. Take me out of the picture and use my voice to articulate your will for their lives. It's all about you oh God. You gave me the skills. It is by your grace I have the opportunity. Not my will, but yours be done. I pray also for Kilesha as she is in proration of her speech as well. Remove her and cover her with your spirit and met the spirit be heard through her. Give her courage and confidence to use her voice for your glory. Deliver us from fear and any disbelief. I realize today that walking in fear automatically gives the enemy authority. I want to walk in faith through your grace. It's who you are. I think you and I praise you for all you are. In Jesus name, amen.

My and my hope

S: “Don’t put your confidence in powerful people; there is no help for you there. Psalms 146:3 NLT

But joyful are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the LORD their God. He made heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them. He keeps every promise forever.”

Psalms 146:5-6 NLT

“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms 147:3 NLT

“Let every created thing give praise to the LORD, for he issued his command, and they came into being. He set them in place forever and ever. His decree will never be revoked.” Psalms 148:5-6 NLT

O: Johnny, Mary and Paul were the first to believe in me. Pastor and Sister G believed in me. In youth I was prophesied over and in Masters when I spent the summer in Riverton. Then Chris, John, BU and now Patrick. Despite of the power each of these people or experiences carry, my confidence does not stand on them or in them. My confidence comes from God and it is in me. God is my help. My hope is only in him. He is the creator. His creation is proof his promises last forever.  I am his and he sees me. He heals my broken heart and bandages upmost wounds, there are many.  

A: Just as I should have a habit of prayer, I should habitually praise!!!! For he has issued his command and it cannot be revoked. When I fully remove me from my relationship with him, as a wife, as a mother in my education and in my business, his will will be all that remains. Doing things due to convenience only shows I still live in fear. Since Gods perfect I've for me has castes out that fear it's time to be set free and walk a new walk with God that exalts him.

P: Abba! There is no other name so majestic and holy. You are my help and my hopes. You created me to have dominion and bring your kingdom down to earth through sharing my story. I am not ashamed of you but ashamed that there are many others like me. Yet my story gives them hope for redemption. Remove me and look at me. May your favor shine upon me. Let fear be broke and no longer hinder me from your commands over my life.  Give me strength that only comes from you to endure. Deliver me from myself and wrap me in you're arms. Never let me go. You are wonderful!!!! In Jesus name, amen.